It's like riding a rollercoaster. When you finally get through the line and get on they take you to the peak. You can see all the way down that long and steep slope. You hold your breath. Everything shifts foward. You're filled with excitement and sick with fear. You're can see it coming, but you don't want to stop it. Not even if you could. You exhale. Once the rush is over, you move on to the next, even bigger rollercoaster. Hoping that this time things will last just a little bit longer.